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Mrs. James Wylie 24 (?) March

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to her Chamber. If she would take my advice I should recommend her to

keep it till the middle of april and then go to some Sea-town in Devonshire

which is sheltered from the east wind, which blows down the channel very

briskly even in april. Give my Compliments to Miss Millar and Miss

Waldegrave.1

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1. The letter is missing a signature.



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To Fanny Keats

1 april 1 82 0

Wentworth Place

April 1st

My dear Fanny,

I am getting better every day and should think myself quite well were I

not reminded every now and then by faintness and a tightness in the Chest.

Send your Spaniel over to Hampstead for I think I know where to find a

Master or Mistress for him. You may depend upon it if you were even to

turn it loose in the common road it would soon find an owner. If I keep

improving as I have done I shall be able to come over to you in the course

of a few weeks. I should take the advantage of your being in Town but I

cannot bear the City though I have already ventured as far as the west end

for the purpose of seeing Mr. Haydon’s Picture which is just finished and

has made its appearance.1 I have not heard from George yet since he left liverpool. Mr. Brown wrote to him as from me the other day. Mr. B. wrote

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course Mr. B. must give up such a correspondence when, as the man said,

all the Letters are on one side. I write with greater ease than I had thought,

therefore you shall soon hear from me again.

Your affectionate Brother



John—

1. Christ’s Entry into Jerusalem was privately exhibited in Egyptian Hall, Piccadilly, on

Saturday, 25 March. It is now at Mount Saint Mary’s Seminary, Norwood, Ohio.



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To Fanny Keats

1 2 april 1 82 0

Wentworth Place

My dear Fanny,

Excuse these shabby scraps of paper I send you and also from endeavouring to give you any consolation just at present, for though my

health is tolerably well I am too nervous to enter into any discussion in

which my heart is concerned. Wait patiently and take care of your health

being especially careful to keep yourself from low spirits which are great enemies to health. You are young and have only need of a little patience. I am

not yet able to bear the fatigue of coming to Walthamstow, though I have

been to Town once or twice. I have thought of taking a change of air. You

shall hear from me immediately on my moving anywhere. I will ask Mrs.

Dilke to pay you a visit if the weather holds fine the first time I see her. The

Dog is being attended to like a Prince.

Your affectionate Brother



John



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To Fanny Keats

2 1 april 1 82 0

My dear Fanny,

I have been slowly improving since I wrote last. The Doctor assures me

that there is nothing the matter with me except nervous irritability and a

general weakness of the whole system which has proceeded from my anxiety of mind of late years and the too great excitement of poetry. Mr. Brown

is going to Scotland by the Smack, and I am advised for change of exercise

and air to accompany him and give myself the chance of benefit from a

Voyage. Mr. H. Wylie call’d on me yesterday with a letter from George to

his mother. George is safe on the other side of the water, perhaps by this

time arrived at his home. I wish you were coming to town that I might see

you. If you should be coming write to me, as it is quite a trouble to get by

the coaches to Walthamstow. Should you not come to Town I must see you

before I sail at Walthamstow. They tell me I must study lines and tangents

and squares and circles to put a little Ballast into my mind. We shall be going in a fortnight and therefore you will see me within that space. I expected sooner, but I have not been able to venture to walk across the Country. Now the fine Weather is come you will not find your time so irksome.

You must be sensible how much I regret not being able to alleviate the unpleasantness of your situation, but trust my dear Fanny that better times are

in wait for you.

Your affectionate Brother



John—



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To Fanny Keats

4 may 1 82 0

Wentworth Place

Thursday—

My dear Fanny,

I went for the first time into the City the day before yesterday, for before

I was very disinclined to encounter the Scuffle, more from nervousness

than real illness, which notwithstanding I should not have suffered to conquer me if I had not made up my mind not to go to Scotland but to remove

to Kentish Town till Mr. Brown returns. Kentish Town is a Mile nearer to

you than Hampstead. I have been getting gradually better but am not so

well as to trust myself to the casualties of rain and sleeping out which I am

liable to in visiting you. Mr. Brown goes on Saturday and by that time I

shall have settled in my new Lodging when I will certainly venture to you.

You will forgive me, I hope, when I confess that I endeavour to think of

you as little as possible and to let George dwell upon my mind but slightly.

The reason being that I am afraid to ruminate on anything which has the

shade of difficulty or melancholy in it, as that sort of cogitation is so pernicious to health, and it is only by health that I can be enabled to alleviate

your situation in future. For some time you must do what you can of yourself for relief, and bear your mind up with the consciousness that your situation cannot last forever, and that for the present you may console yourself

against the reproaches of Mrs. Abbey. Whatever obligations you may have

had to her (or her Husband) you have none now as she has reproach’d you.

I do not know what property you have, but I will enquire into it. Be sure

however that beyond the obligations that a Lodger may have to a Landlord

you have none to Mr. Abbey. Let the surety of this make you laugh at Mrs.

A’s foolish tattle. Mrs. Dilke’s Brother has got your Dog. She is not very

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up my mind on the propriety of introducing a Stranger into Abbey’s

House. Be careful to let no fretting injure your health as I have suffered it.

Health is the greatest of blessings. With health and hope we should be content to live, and so you will find as you grow older. I am

my dear Fanny

your affectionate Brother



John—



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To Fanny Brawne

may (?) 1 82 0

Tuesday Morn—

My dearest Girl,

I wrote a Letter for you yesterday expecting to have seen your mother. I

shall be selfish enough to send it though I know it may give you a little

pain, because I wish you to see how unhappy I am for love of you, and

endeavour as much as I can to entice you to give up your whole heart to me

whose whole existence hangs upon you. You could not step or move an eyelid but it would shoot to my heart. I am greedy of you. Do not think of

anything but me. Do not live as if I was not existing. Do not forget me. But

have I any right to say you forget me? Perhaps you think of me all day.

Have I any right to wish you to be unhappy for me? You would forgive me

for wishing it, if you knew the extreme passion I have that you should love

me. And for you to love me as I do you, you must think of no one but me,

much less write that sentence.

Yesterday and this morning I have been haunted with a sweet vision. I

have seen you the whole time in your shepherdess dress. How my senses

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been full of Tears at it! Indeed, I think a real Love is enough to occupy the

widest heart. Your going to town alone, when I heard of it, was a shock to

me. Yet I expected it. Promise me you will not for some time, till I get better.

Promise me this and fill the paper full of the most endearing names. If you

cannot do so with good will, do my Love tell me—say what you think—

confess if your heart is too much fasten’d on the world. Perhaps then I may

see you at a greater distance, I may not be able to appropriate you so closely

to myself. Were you to lose a favorite bird from the cage, how would your

eyes ache after it as long as it was in sight; when out of sight you would recover a little. Perhaps if you would, if so it is, confess to me how many

things are necessary to you besides me, I might be happier, by being less

tantaliz’d. Well may you exclaim, how selfish, how cruel, not to let me enjoy my youth! To wish me to be unhappy! You must be so if you love me.

Upon my Soul I can be contented with nothing else. If you could really

what is call’d enjoy yourself at a Party; if you can smile in peoples’ faces, and

wish them to admire you now, you never have nor ever will love me. I see

life in nothing but the certainty of your Love; convince me of it my sweetest. If I am not somehow convinc’d I shall die of agony. If we love we must

not live as other men and women do. I cannot brook the wolfsbane of fashion and foppery and tattle. You must be mine to die upon the rack if I want

you. I do not pretend to say I have more feeling than my fellows, but I wish

you seriously to look over my letters kind and unkind and consider whether

the Person who wrote them can be able to endure much longer the agonies

and uncertainties which you are so peculiarly made to create. My recovery

of bodily health will be of no benefit to me if you are not all mine when I

am well. For god’s sake save me, or tell me my passion is of too awful a nature for you. Again God bless you,



J. K.

No—my sweet Fanny—I am wrong. I do not want you to be unhappy—

and yet I do, I must while there is so sweet a Beauty—my loveliest, my

darling! Good bye! I kiss you—O, the torments!



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To Fanny Brawne

j u n e (?) 1 82 0

My dearest Fanny,

My head is puzzled this morning, and I scarce know what I shall say

though I am full of a hundred things. ’Tis certain I would rather be writing

to you this morning, notwithstanding the alloy of grief in such an occupation, than enjoy any other pleasure, with health to boot, unconnected with

you. Upon my soul I have loved you to the extreme. I wish you could know

the Tenderness with which I continually brood over your different aspects

of countenance, action and dress. I see you come down in the morning; I

see you meet me at the Window. I see everything over again eternally that I

ever have seen. If I get on the pleasant clue I live in a sort of happy misery,

if on the unpleasant ’tis miserable misery. You complain of my ill treating

you in word, thought and deed. I am sorry. At times I feel bitterly sorry

that I ever made you unhappy. My excuse is that those words have been

wrung from me by the sharpness of my feelings. At all events and in any

case I have been wrong; could I believe that I did it without any cause, I

should be the most sincere of Penitents. I could give way to my repentant

feelings now; I could recant all my suspicions; I could mingle with you

heart and Soul, though absent, were it not for some parts of your Letters.

Do you suppose it possible I could ever leave you? You know what I think

of myself and what of you. You know that I should feel how much it was

my loss and how little yours. My friends laugh at you! I know some of

them; when I know them all I shall never think of them again as friends or

even acquaintance. My friends have behaved well to me in every instance

but one, and there they have become tattlers and inquisitors into my conduct, spying upon a secret I would rather die than share it with anybody’s

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again. If I am the Theme, I will not be the Friend of idle Gossips. Good

gods what a shame it is our Loves should be so put into the microscope of a

Coterie. Their laughs should not affect you (I may perhaps give you reasons

some day for these laughs, for I suspect a few people to hate me well

enough, for reasons I know of, who have pretended a great friendship for

me) when in competition with one, who if he never should see you again

would make you the saint of his memory. These Laughers, who do not like

you, who envy you for your Beauty, who would have God-bless’d-me from

you forever, who were plying me with disencouragements with respect to

you eternally. People are revengeful. Do not mind them. Do nothing but

love me. If I knew that for certain life and health will in such event be a

heaven, and death itself will be less painful. I long to believe in immortality.

I shall never be able to bid you an entire farewell. If I am destined to be

happy with you here, how short is the longest Life. I wish to believe in immortality. I wish to live with you forever. Do not let my name ever pass between you and those laughers. If I have no other merit than the great Love

for you, that were sufficient to keep me sacred and unmentioned in such

society. If I have been cruel and injust I swear my love has ever been greater

than my cruelty which lasts but a minute, whereas my Love, come what

will, shall last forever. If concessions to me has hurt your Pride, god knows I

have had little pride in my heart when thinking of you. Your name never

passes my Lips; do not let mine pass yours. Those People do not like me.

After reading my Letter you even then wish to see me, I am strong enough

to walk over. But I dare not. I shall feel so much pain in parting with you

again. My dearest love, I am afraid to see you. I am strong but not strong

enough to see you. Will my arm be ever round you again? And if so shall I

be obliged to leave you again? My sweet Love! I am happy whilst I believe

your first Letter. Let me be but certain that you are mine heart and soul,

and I could die more happily than I could otherwise live. If you think me

cruel, if you think I have slighted you, do muse it over again and see into

my heart. My Love to you is “true as truth’s simplicity and simpler than the

infancy of truth,”1 as I think I once said before. How could I slight you?

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in the spirit of Wretchedness in myself. My fairest, my delicious, my angel

Fanny! Do not believe me such a vulgar fellow. I will be as patient in illness

and as believing in Love as I am able.

Yours forever my dearest



John Keats—

1. Troilus and Cressida, III.ii.176f.



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To John Taylor

1 1 (?) j u n e 1 82 0

My dear Taylor,

In reading over the proof of St Agnes’ Eve since I left Fleet street I was

struck with what appears to me an alteration in the 7th Stanza very much

for the worse. The passage I mean stands thus:

“her maiden eyes incline

Still on the floor, while many a sweeping train

Pass by—”

Twas originally written

“her maiden eyes divine

Fix’d on the floor saw many a sweeping train

Pass by—”

My meaning is quite destroyed in the alteration. I do not use train for concourse of passers by but for Skirts sweeping along the floor. In the first Stanza

my copy reads, 2nd line

“bitter chill it was”

to avoid the echo cold in the next line.

ever yours sincerely



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To Charles Brown

abou t 2 1 j u n e 1 82 0 1

My dear Brown,

I have only been to x x x’s2 once since you left, when x x x x3 could

not find your letters. Now this is bad of me. I should, in this instance, conquer the great aversion to breaking up my regular habits, which grows upon

me more and more. True, I have an excuse in the weather, which drives

one from shelter to shelter in any little excursion. I have not heard from

George. My book4 is coming out with very low hopes, though not spirits

on my part. This shall be my last trial; not succeeding, I shall try what I can

do in the Apothecary line. When you hear from or see x x x x x x5 it is probable you will hear some complaints against me, which this notice is not intended to forestall. The fact is I did behave badly, but it is to be attributed

to my health, spirits, and the disadvantageous ground I stand on in society.

I would go and accommodate matters, if I were not too weary of the world.

I know that they are more happy and comfortable than I am; therefore why

should I trouble myself about it? I foresee I shall know very few people in

the course of a year or two. Men get such different habits that they become

as oil and vinegar to one another. Thus far I have a consciousness of having

been pretty dull and heavy, both in subject and phrase; I might add, enigmatical. I am in the wrong, and the world is in the right, I have no doubt.

Fact is, I have had so many kindnesses done me by so many people, that I

am cheveaux-defrised6 with benefits, which I must jump over or break

down. I met x x x7 in town a few days ago, who invited me to supper to

meet Wordsworth, Southey, Lamb, Haydon, and some more. I was too

careful of my health to risk being out at night. Talking of that, I continue

to improve slowly, but I think surely. All the talk at present x x x x x x x x.

There is a famous exhibition in Pall Mall8 of the old english portraits by

Van Dyck and Holbein, Sir Peter Lely and the great Sir Godfrey. Pleasant

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There is James the first, whose appearance would disgrace a “Society for the

suppression of women,” so very squalid, and subdued to nothing he looks.

Then, there is old Lord Burleigh, the high priest of economy, the political

save-all, who has the appearance of a Pharisee just rebuffed by a gospel bonmot. Then, there is George the second, very like an unintellectual Voltaire,

troubled with the gout and a bad temper. Then, there is young Devereux,

the favourite, with every appearance of as slang a boxer as any in the court;

his face is cast in the mould of blackguardism with jockey-plaster. x x x x x I

shall soon begin upon Lucy Vaughan Lloyd.9 I do not begin composition

yet, being willing, in case of a relapse, to have nothing to reproach myself

with. I hope the weather will give you the slip; let it show itself, and steal

out of your company. x x x x x x When I have sent off this, I shall write another to some place about fifty miles in advance of you.

Good morning to you.

Your’s ever sincerely,



John Keats

Printed from Brown’s Life of John Keats.

Dilke’s.

Probably Dilke.

Lamia, Isabella, The Eve of St. Agnes, and Other Poems.

Bailey.

A cryptic idiom. Literally, “taken the curls out of my hair.” More generally, “overwhelmed.”

7. Monkhouse.

8. The British Institution, 52 Pall Mall, opened on 15 June.

9. “The Cap and Bells.”



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